I just carry on walking,
Doubting every step I take more and more.
I can't keep my feet on the ground.
I'm losing touch, I'm losing grip,
Nothing feels as real as it did before.

Scared on the journey home,
I'm a bag of nerves.
You know you've reached the point of no return
When you're afraid of the sky.
The sky you'd look up at and love,
Never thinking what was hidden above.

Getting lost in my thoughts,
Staring and staring,
Always thinking and dreading.
Don't let me die,
I can't handle knowledge.

I've got to stay in the here and now,
Black t-shirt, black trousers, black shoes, black socks, black boxers.
Just wishing it wasn't Summer.
Right now I need to stay hidden.
Take whatever they say,
Stop caring about the darkness when their light is turned out.
I can't be that moth anymore,
Batting that bulb and burning my wings,
Every lunge hurts more than the last,
But it's so bright and appealing.
It's just what I need.

It's insulting,
Don't talk about my grey skin.
I'm more than dust.
'Just 'cause you feel it, doesn't mean it's there'.
I miss her so fucking much,
I miss everyone so fucking much,
I miss you so fucking much,
I miss myself so fucking much.

As that same old fog takes me away,
I won't lose sight of what I've got,
And what this world means to me.
There's beauty in everything I see,
I just can't remember what beauty looks like.
I can't be forgotten. Not by anyone.
Someone help me,
Remind me.

zahida