We were not in love
there was never any
misconception about that
she was my something on the side
I was her midnite secret guy
she liked to screw me
every couple weeks
I was happy to oblige
and that was that

she had been told
it was unlikely she
would ever get pregnant
due to a cervical problem
so we hit bare skin every time
then one night
the busted nut
was far deeper
far more satisfying
I though it was great
she thought it was all right
and we went our separate ways
to wait until our next tryst
there was never a next tryst

a few weeks later
she found me at some weekly ritual
to confide in me her great news
what she thought was not possible
had occurred
and she had me to thank
she was sure I was the father
but she didn’t want me to be the daddy
she just thought I should know
and confused I am still whether
I was given mercy or
used as a simple stud.

zahida